Help
Sign In
QaR
September 2009 
The fox goes home
Posted on Aug 27th, 2008
by 
forrest
forrest
This used to be a fox....or maybe it still is a fox, only in another manifestation.
I used to be a spiritual person.
I used to know who i was.
I used to consider myself a failure at times.
And sometimes a wonderful caring man.
And sometimes a pitiful neurotic basket case.
Brilliant, intelligent, far seeing and wise.
Short sighted, lost in momentary pleasure.
I’ve been it all.
And a lot of it i’m not proud of.
Some of what i have been proud of seems about as solid as this fox.
I’m disintegrating.
I’d like it to happen before, i return to the earth,
fur and bones.
I used to be a spiritual person.
I used to know who i was.
I used to consider myself a failure at times.
And sometimes a wonderful caring man.
And sometimes a pitiful neurotic basket case.
Brilliant, intelligent, far seeing and wise.
Short sighted, lost in momentary pleasure.
I’ve been it all.
And a lot of it i’m not proud of.
Some of what i have been proud of seems about as solid as this fox.
I’m disintegrating.
I’d like it to happen before, i return to the earth,
fur and bones.
Access: Public
I thought this was one of Farland's entries for a minute.
hmmm, high praise, i love Farland's entries!
Me too. I was hoping you'd take that as a compliment. :)
Just yesterday I was picking sunbleached white bones from the flattened pile of fur that use to be a young coyote. I was with a friend who'd driven this spring through the Idaho mountains and saw road killed animals on snow pedestals beside the road the fur had insulated the snow underneath while the rest melted. The watching death is not so bad the hard part is the violence of the hit by car.
this fox was on the trail to the blueberry patch, a dirt and grass “road” that is no longer driven on by vehicles…with the exception of snowmobiles in the winter, so maybe they did him in. I hadn't considered what killed the fox. Perhaps it was a thoughtless snowmobiler, but i have a prejudice against snowmobiles anyway. I'm sure they have their utility in reaching people in remote areas, but recreational use seems insane, excuse my strong language.
This is totally off topic, but the memory is evoked… In Albuquerque, they worship the Unser family, race car drivers, and the old man, Bobby Unser was caught snowmobiling in a wilderness area. The slanted press that followed, his arrogant response, the acceptance of his attitude and fawning over a celebrity race car driver made me sick.
Gnomi has a thing against snowmobiles too. She chases them down and bites fast to the front runner and pulls them off course. A fierce thing to do for a 37 pound dog.
So nice to write from the viewpoint of the fox bringing the awareness. We have a new member (Karen Anderson) that can talk to animals and she is reaching for friends. Karen may have some more answers on behalf of this fox that will help us know about the energy for its new beginning. When life goes create, survive, destroy, not create I can only put in theory here but I think we do that cycle over and over to keep things new, but destruction from a snowmobile, if that were the case doesn't seem ok.
This is an incredible photograph, Forrest. the return is presented so gracefully here. is that a feather off to the side? at any rate, thanks.